It all started out as a wonderful day. I woke up early, showered, and I even got to FaceTime Pete before he went to bed! I was so excited for Disneyland in PARIS! How cool is it to say that you have been to Disneyland in a foreign country? Well I thought it was cool :) I was so excited for a day outside of homework, museums, and photography. We had a meeting time of 9:00 am to leave for Disneyland. Like usual not everyone was there on time and so Lauren, another girl Kristen, and I headed down to the metro station to get our train tickets. We finally figured out which ones to get and then we were going to wait for the others. They were still running late and one girl had forgotten her tickets at the hotel so she had to go back. The three of us decided that we just wanted to get out to Disneyland and that we would meet them at 1:00 by the castle. We left, got on the metro fine, and made it to the train. It seemed like a long ride but I stayed busy by reading the Book of Mormon.
When we finally got to Disneyland an hour and a half later I was the happiest girl! I felt like a little kid again! I feel like Disneyland does that to a lot of people, no matter what your age is! We waited in the security line and breathed in lots of smoke :( I was in shock that smoking would be allowed at Disneyland with all the little kids running around. We finally got through security and then we were on our way to the ticket booth to enter into the happiest place on earth! Lauren and I got in fine and then Kristen had problems with her ticket so she had to go to another booth. She didn't explain where she was going or what she was doing so we had no idea if we were supposed to wait or not. We sat on a bench and waited for about ten minutes and then decided to go have some fun and that we would see her at 1:00 at the meeting point.
The first ride we went on was Space Mountain 2 and it was a blast! Then we went over to Fantasyland and found my mom's favorite ride, It's a Small World :) We of course had to go on it! We actually liked it a lot better than California's one. It was so cute and so fun to see the London Bridge and Eiffel Tower and be able to say "We've been there!" :)
After that we met the group at the castle, but Kristen was not there. We waited around for about 20 minutes and she still wasn't there so we decided to head over to the Walt Disney Studios park. It was so much fun and the weather was sooo nice! We went on Tower of Terror, Rock'n'Roller Coaster, and Crush's Coaster. There wasn't really much to do in the Walt Disney Studios park so we went back over to Disneyland. We went on Space Mountain again and then ate an early dinner. After that we ran into Kristen and we were so excited! We went on so many more rides but probably one of my favorites was Peter Pan :) It made me think of my Peter back at home and how much I miss him! I loved the feeling of being able to "fly" and just enjoy a nice relaxing ride.
We had made another meeting time of 8:00 so we could go get a treat but when we met, everyone wanted to go on more rides so we all ran to Indiana Jones (which is so much better in California) and then after that I started feeling sick to my stomach. I felt nauseated and I just wanted to sit down and curl in a ball. Everyone got doughnuts and cookies and then we didn't have much time left so they went into all the shops. Lauren and I sat on the street and ran into Kristen again. We told her we only had 15 minutes till we had to meet to leave. Lauren and I wandered over to the castle and it was packed with people. Our meeting spot had turned into the busiest spot in the park...I wish we would have thought about that one earlier. We stood there for a little bit and then more of the group came, but Kristen was still not there. We had to be leaving by 10 or we could possibly get stuck somewhere because the metros close around midnight. We waited around for another 20 minutes and decided that we were putting ourselves at risk if we didn't leave. We walked down main street while trying to keep an eye out for her but she was no where to be found. We got to the entrance and decided that we needed to say a prayer. So we all huddled in a corner and said a prayer that Kristen would make it home safe and that we would also make it home safe. We left the park and headed to the train station feeling good about our prayer and had the faith that everything would be ok.
When we got to the train station the ticket gates weren't taking our tickets. We all panicked and pushed through the gates. We were all a little scared but glad we made it on the train. We had 17 stops till we had to switch to get on the metro so we were all just talking and having so much fun and I didn't feel scared at all. About halfway through the train ride a drunk guy gets on the train and taps me on the shoulder and was mumbling something in French. My body froze and I kept my head down as my stomach tied up in a knot. Everyone said that I looked like a statue. I felt so sick and scared after that. I tried to keep it in but with all the emotions I was feeling and how tired I already was I let it out. My body felt so numb. I completely shut down at that point and then Lauren nudged me and said he's coming back. I closed my eyes in fear of what was going to happen. He walked down the train with his beer bottle in hand and had lit his cigarette (in a non smoking train). The whole train moved away from him and luckily the next stop was ours. We got off and hurried up to get to the metro. Of course there were many guys around that were either drunk, smoking, or just ones that we didn't have a good feeling about. We ran to our metro and got in one that had more girls in it. I was clenching my fist around my bag as tight as I could and I just kept looking out the window, I could not relax. I didn't want to look at anyone, I didn't want to speak, I was so scared. The metro left and at each stop more and more people got on, but I couldn't trust anyone at that point. We finally got to our stop and I have never walked so fast to get to our hotel. We got there safely, got our key, went up to our room, and I broke down. I tried FaceTiming my mom but she wasn't home, then I tried FaceTiming Pete and he wasn't available either. I text both of them and asked them to please call me when they could. At this point I had tears streaming down my face, snot coming out of my nose, and I could barely breathe.
Pete had just barely gotten out of the temple and was going to be home in 15 minutes. I got myself together a little more and then got the FaceTime call from him. I didn't even know what I was saying, I was still in shock. I told him everything and he calmed me down so well. He was so cute about just listening to me cry and just express how scared I felt. I am so grateful that he was available to help me through this. After that I FaceTimed my mom and broke down again. I'm sure everyone that was listening to me could barely understand me and I probably didn't make much sense...but I was so grateful that they were there to talk to. My mom was so helpful and it was so good to see and hear her. It was 1:00 am at that point and I was so exhausted. I haven't been sleeping well so Lauren gave me an Advil PM and I slowly started to get more tired. I finally fell asleep around 2:00 am.
This may not be very scary for those of you reading this at home, but for me it was one of my worst nightmares. I hate being alone, I hate being out at night, and my biggest fear is being raped or taken. That was all that was going through my mind when I was on that train, even though I knew I was safe. After being so emotionally drained from all of this I realize that Heavenly Father gave me this experience for a reason. I had a similar experience a couple weeks ago in London where no one was there, so I had to turn to my Heavenly Father. I had to put so much faith and trust in Him and know that everything would be ok. Pete and my dad gave me a blessing before I left and my dad blessed me that I would be safe, so I knew that I was being watched over but my mind was in a completely different place at the time. I noticed many little blessings tonight that made it so I was able to get home safely. I noticed that we made it on the right train just in time for it to leave. I noticed that I was surrounded by a bunch of girls who are strong in the gospel and had the faith that everything would be ok. I noticed that my mom was available to help calm me down and remind me that everything was going to be ok. I noticed so many more blessings, but for some reason I feel like Pete going to the temple is a big part of what kept me safe and I can't even describe how grateful I am for him. I know this may be too personal to share on this post but I want to share something with everyone, I want to share something that I love about Pete.
Pete is probably one of the most spiritual guys I know. He is always looking for ways to serve others and apply everything to the gospel. Throughout our relationship he has been such an example to me. I have had so many people say that he makes me a better person and they can see it in my face. I have this glow about me and I know that it is Pete who has shown me who I am and how important I am. He is so good about sharing a spiritual experience or even a mission experience without making you feel like he is better than you. Pete has Christlike qualities that I strive for each and every day. He makes me want to become a better person and I can't wait to be sealed to him for eternity. I am so grateful for him and for the covenants he has kept to be a worthy priesthood holder. I truly feel that his desire to serve at the temple yesterday is what kept me protected. I feel so blessed to be able to be his wife in a couple of months and to raise a family with such an amazing person like Pete as their example! I love you Pete!
To end this post I would just like to express my gratitude for a loving Heavenly Father who protects me wherever I am. I have grown so much from this experience and I know that everything I have gone through has been for a reason, whether I know it right now or not. I am so grateful for Lauren and for the support she has been throughout this journey, she has been one good companion ;) I am also grateful for all of you at home who have been helping me along the way! I couldn't have done it without you! I'll see you all in a couple of days!
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